Wow so much has happened, My in-laws both passed away last year, one unexpectedly. I miss them so much, they were kind, loving people, always willing to help our family. They will be missed. I got the job last year. It was only temporary but such a good experience. I have a different job this year and I love it. It is very challenging, but there are so many great people that I have met. My son will be going on a mission very soon, (June) so changes keep coming into our lives. I guess that is what makes life interesting.
Aug13, 2015
What did I say about funerals last year? Well the truth is you really can't get away from them. People are always "die"ing to get out of this world.
More funerals, and why is it that the death of someone is so transforming? And yet the last funeral and the last death have made me not so afraid of death. I saw beauty in it, peace and most of all love. The details are all fresh in my mind, honestly it was a spiritual experience, and I can't help but be hopeful and smile about the future, I will sincerely miss the person who died. They were a huge influence on my life, but they are at peace now, no more pain, no more suffering. And my heart is full of joy know they were surrounded by loved ones both on this side and on the other.
Thomas S Monson
To all who have lost loved ones, we would turn Job’s question to an answer: If a man die, he shall live again. We know, for we have the light of revealed truth. “I am the resurrection, and the life,” spoke the Master. “He that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live: And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die.”Through tears and trials, through fears and sorrows, through the heartache and loneliness of losing loved ones, there is assurance that life is everlasting. Our Lord and Savior is the living witness that such is so.
Sept 10,2014
I've decided that I really don't like creating sympathy cards. It's not that I hate the cards themselves, it's just that I hate the thought of giving someone a card that will only remind them of the person that they've lost, and the tragedy that they've been through.
How I wish there was some way to say "I'm so sorry for your loss" with out creating more pain.
Also starting off the school year with two funerals is not encouraging. I hope things will get better from here on out.
Feb 18, 2014
Here's to settling in. We moved at the end of last year, just before the Christmas holidays. We're settling in with my parents. It's something I never thought I would do, but it will lead to us getting our own house later on. I'm grateful they let us come live here. Life is busy for us I almost always have something going on every day of the week. So, on those rare occasions when I actually have a little time to myself, I find myself working around the house and trying to finish unpacking what isn't in storage. This will all be for our good, I feel peaceful about being here So I'm sure that we've made the right choice about moving.
June 4, 2013
I just wanted to express how grateful I am, for my friends and family. Let me first explain we only have one car for our family, so I ended up having to take my husband to work early in the morning.
Then it was time to get the kids ready for their last day of school. I was looking for socks. When I leaned down to get them out of the laundry basket, I sneezed. I've had back problems before, and a sneeze is what caused me to end up in the hospital with back surgery for a burst disk. Needless to say the pop in my back this time was not a good pop. Luckily I wasn't down on the floor writhing in pain, though I would have to say that my back felt like it was on fire. Thank heavens I was still able to get up and walk. I would have called my mom but I knew she had to work as well as my other siblings and my in-laws wouldn't be able to get to our house in time for everything.
I took Tylenol and Ibuprofen immediately for the pain. I walked my daughter over to school taking tiny steps. She told me I had to hurry, I told her I couldn't, it hurt.
While I was there I saw my friend Shanti and her son. Her son is in the same class as my daughter. I asked her if she wanted to come with me to my son's eighth grade farewell assembly (promotion / graduation). I almost broke into tears when she said no. I figured I'd muddle along somehow, she saw I was in pain and I explained what had happened. I just didn't want her to come if she had something else to do. But she told me why didn't I just explain in the first place, then she would have said yes.
She came right over, and helped me carry the camera, and my purse. I'm so grateful she was able to help me out. The assembly was great and I got some great pictures of my son and his classmates.
So an update on the back It still hurts this morning but not quite as bad I'm able to move around a little bit better with a little less pain. I'm still having a few spasms but nothing like yesterday. Again I'm so grateful for family and friends, especially Shanti.
May 14, 2013
I was thinking about things over the holiday, (Mother's Day), that I really ought to write more in my Journal, but this is a kind of Journal, So, since I haven't written since the beginning of this year here's more of what's happening in my life. I was called to be the cub master for our ward (while also being one of the nursery leaders) and have been to every den meeting since they called me. We only have two leaders, Wolves and Webelos, and technically should be two deep in leadership. So we've been meeting all together because they haven't called us any more leaders. Although they have called an 11-year old scout leader as of last Sunday. (technically they are with the boy scout program and work from the boy scout hand book.) We have some great boys in our den and we're trying to get them through the program as quickly as we can. I sure hope that they call some more leaders for us.
I just got a call today from the lady who is over us in the stake and she wants to come and attend one of our meetings. However, it will have to wait for two weeks because this week we're planning on going to the zoo with our boys. So because of all of the cub scout stuff I've done I'm think of adding a new tab about cubscouts on my blog. I will post some things that I've done as well as forms and opener word games/mazes that I've made for some of the subjects we've covered in the program.
Any way I'm still keeping busy especially this past weekend. Saturday was my daughters baptism, at 10:00 in the morning and barring that a few people who we'd invited didn't show up, including two of my brothers, we had a very nice time. We had cake and ice cream and a light meal; salads and meatball sandwiches. It was a very nice time to visit with my family and the friends who came. I cancelled the art lesson that I usually taught because my son told us he had a scout activity that was supposed to take place then we got the details and they changed the time and day. My mother had asked my son to some and cut her lawn that same day so we went there and he obliged. We had a short but nice visit with her.
Later just before we left, one of my very good friends called me to see how things went at the baptism and I took over some cupcakes since she hadn't been able to attend because her son was sick. She asked me to get some groceries for her to help her son feel better. After our visit with my mom and dad, we went to the store where we picked up the things we needed. When we delivered them we found out that her son wasn't doing well and I asked if she wanted me to take them to the doctors office, which we did. He was diagnosed with Entero virus. It's not fun at all; vomiting and diarrhea. At any rate I was finally home between 10:30 pm and 11:00 p.m. and in bed about 1:00 a.m. and now I'm very beat and must go to bed I hope your days are less busy than my weekend was.
Jan 8, 2013
I talked to my aunt over the Christmas holidays. I showed her my paper dolls that I'd been working on. She was very interested in them. She said she might be able to get them on her artist website that she does. It was encouraging news. I've been working really hard to get get them print ready and into a pdf format. Hopefully my aunt is able to convince the other people involved in the website that my paper dolls will sell. When my cousins saw them they said "ooh did you make those? I want some." So I told them I'd send them a copy. Hopefully the response from the general public will be the same.
Jan. 3, 2013
Well since the end of the world didn't happen, I guess I'll continue writing about Christmas. I don't know if any of my readers have ever been the recipients of a sub for Santa or a secret Santa. We were this year again for the second time. It looked like this year all that the kids might get for Christmas would be underwear and socks. Then someone asked if we needed help this year, and Santa really came through. My kids not only got what they needed but then some. We are so grateful to those people who truly had the spirit of Christmas in their hearts. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you! and Merry Christmas!
Dec 28, 2012
We've decided to tough it out here for now. Finally got the Christmas tree up and decorated the night before Christmas. Was trying to finish sewing projects the same night, (I swore last year that I wouldn't let that happen this year, HA!) I wasn't able to buy everything that I needed to before the 24th. So not all of the projects were completed and when my sewing machine started acting up I took it as a sign that I needed to just stop sewing and go to sleep. My son's quilt that I'd been working on went into the gift bag unfinished. Hopefully I'll be able to work on it a bit tomorrow he's anxious to have it finished.
Dec. 13, 2012
Update on previous post.
My neighbor stopped me today after taking my kids to school. He wanted to apologize for what happened over the weekend. He said he was making things up, said we were good neighbors and he was sorry, that it would never happen again. He asked me to pass it on to my husband. I was trying not to cry, to hold it all together. I teared up anyway.
I still don't feel safe living here anymore, partly because of past experience. (One time he was drunk, came home couldn't find his keys and banged on his apartment door breaking the glass in the screen door. Our neighbors up front came to see what was going on, they helped him out.) I've been crying off and on all day. It was nice he apologized, but there are consequences to every action. I haven't decided whether to send the letter I wrote to the landlord or not. So we're still going to try to find someplace else to live.
Dec 11, 2012
Feeling a little negative right now, because of an incident with our neighbors over the weekend. We should have just called the police.
They had a party, they were drunk, had their music up too loud. My husband asked them nicely to turn it down a little, not turn it off mind you, just turn it down. Apparently the neighbor took offense and came up to our door, and decided to air all grievances against us, (no, we're not perfect, never claimed to be) in front of all of his guests, with much swearing (on their part not ours).
I have a horrible feeling every time I think about what happened, and we haven't been sleeping well since then. I even wrote a letter of apology to them the day after (I kept a copy too). I feel like I don't ever want to see them again in this life time. In some ways I hope that they're embarrassed about the whole thing. I am going to send a letter to the landlord about what happened. I'm not going to sugar coat anything, although they told us that they "have the landlord in their pocket" because they're friends with his son.
This afternoon, I heard him arguing with his wife/girlfriend downstairs again. It lasted about 20 minutes total, not yelling all the time but her yelling ow! twice and screaming and him swearing at her.
Apparently the arguing has been going on for a while. The previous tenants who were on the same level as them, told us they could hear them arguing all of the time. I don't know what to do about all of this. Maybe, I'll just keep a record right now so if anything does happen we can let someone know.
At any rate we've decided it's time to start looking for a new place to live. Hope we can find one in our price range. I'm not looking forward to the prospect of moving because I love the members of our ward (church) the convenience of being close to my daughter's school, (her teacher is awesome), and I love the opportunities for my son at his school and the fact that he's able to car pool with other kids from our neighborhood. I don't want to leave the good friends we've made in this area. This is what makes me saddest of all.
Sept. 13, 2012
Wow, I haven't written on here for a while, I've just been thinking today what a great bunch of friends I have both online and here around me at home. I love hearing from all of you whether it's on Face book or otherwise. You are awesome and you don't know how much I appreciate your words of concern or encouragement whether you know it or not you are all a big part of my life. So thank you :)
We went on vacation to Yellowstone over Labor Day, with my in laws. I think the lord must have been whispering to my mother-in law, who wanted to go almost on a whim (I thought), because when we got back from our vacation, we found out that the Friday after we'd left that my kids school had been put on lockdown. Someone with a gun had been spotted in the area. Everyone that sent their children to school that day had to come pick them up personally. I don't know what I would have been doing that day honestly, other than chores around the house. I'm glad however that I wasn't in the area when everything occurred. The lord really does listen when we ask him to protect us and our families, I'm positive of that.
July 23, 2012
So many things I have to do today, but a thought has been running around in my head, do I actually express myself better in writing than I do in real life. Is what I say actually boring?, case in point I was at a relatives birthday party this weekend I was talking about something that I thought was funny and was interrupted. I never finished what I was saying. I guess it just must not have been important to anyone but me, oh well. I guess this is why I rarely have anything to say on my face book page. It was important to me but not many other people care about it. I wish I had something more important to say right now, but I guess this is it for a while. I'm still considering selling stuff online, bracelets and earrings I've made as well as my paper dolls. When I get my ETSY shop up I'll post a link here and on face book :) Hope every one else has a wonderful day.
June 23, 2012
My husband lost his job last October and we've been receiving unemployment as he searches for a full time job. He was hired by FedEx temporary part time and has been permanent part time there since January. He got a promotion over the past two weeks. His pay was raised, he gets more hours, and great news we finally qualify for health insurance, (yes!) but because of the raise we won't get the unemployment pay anymore. His net pay has gone down now because of having to pay insurance costs but unemployment benefits are based on gross pay. It seems a little unfair to him. He left this morning worried about how we're going to make ends meet.
I wish there was something I could do to allay his fears. I'm still looking for part time work, but haven't found anything yet. Let me explain...The part time work I had before has dried up, so to speak. The lady I was working for didn't receive enough orders for me to continue working for her. It was a fun job, and it was nice to be working for one of my friends. Incidentally if you're interested in buying a tutu for a little girl, hers are beautiful, and all hand made, She sells exclusively online at http://lilyannaforgirls.com/shop/
Now I'm wondering should I try to start an e-shop of my own and sell paper dolls and other craft items. Would it be profitable enough? I'll post a picture of the paper doll I designed. I think she's quite pretty. Plus I have quite a few pages of clothes for her. Let me know if anyone out there thinks she'd sell.
Well that's all for now. I hope things will work out for us, I know the lord watches over us. I'm sure he will come to our aid again.
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May 2012
Lots has been happening this past week. First my daughters birthday, her party and between volunteering at school and my part time job, things would have normally been hectic, not bad, just hectic.
Then we got terrible news...my sister in laws dad had been killed in a horrible motor cycle accident and just so you know he was wearing his helmet. The accident snarled traffic for a few hours on the freeway. I was in total shock when I first heard and then the tears came and kept coming over the next few days. How were they doing I wondered? I didn't want to call. I didn't want them to be inundated with unnecessary ringing of the phone off the hook. I wanted to give them a chance to come to terms with their grief, without having to go over everything again and again. I knew I wouldn't want to.
My sis-in-law posted about the accident on her blog and how the family had found out and a fresh wave of tears came upon reading it. It was absolutely heart rending. I wished I could give her and my brother hugs and tell them everything would be okay. I resisted posting anything on facebook, and only penned a condolence over e-mail. Over the following days before the funeral I had the image come to me of her dad in shorts wearing flip flops and just smiling. That's how I pictured him every time I thought of him. I think he is okay on the other side that he's watching over his family.
Then at the funeral today, there was the most peaceful feeling that stole over all of us, a few more tears, certainly but peace at last, and I think the start of the healing process. My brother told me that his son last night at the viewing had this utter look of despair on his face and told his dad (pleading) "no dead, dad, no dead!" and as I'm thinking about this I'm crying again. I'm hoping he is also finding peace too. I have no doubt that he will see his grandpa again on resurrection morning and that their reunion will be one of joy.
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